chapter 25

 A Month past by and every day I hated aziz more and more . he was living his life happly with 3alya , but the moment our eyes gaze into each other's , I could see the sadness in his eyes .

There is a part of me that still wants him.

There is a part of me that still loves him.

My dad knocked : rana , fchy el bab

I opened the door : hala yuba

He pointed at my couch : sit

Me : ok

I sat , he sat next to me , he talked very calmly

Dad : rana 7beebty gooly ly  .. mnu hatha elly  ma5th glbch

I teared . remembered every single moment .

Dad : rana ?

Me : no one . I lied to you . sorry .

I let my self fall in his lap and cried .

Baba : shhh . laish ma glty ly ennch mu mst3da ana knt bfhm

I cried more

Dad : khala9 baba , tara thary laih al7een ybeech

I stopped

Me : ha

Dad : tara thary y7bch mn w enty 93'eera .. w laih al7een y7ch w mst3d y56bch .

I didn’t say a word .

I was thinking

Lma knt achoof thary w uhwa 93'eer ma knt aklmh shloon y7bni ? knna ma neshtehy ba3a6' !

Dad : rana ?

Me : hala

Dad : are you ready now ?

I took a deep breath .

Yes I am

I'll forget aziz forever

No

How can u

U love him

Take a deep breath

Me : yes .

Dad : hathy el sa3a el mbareka ! mbrook yuba aw3dch ma ra7 tndimeen !!

He kissed my forehead , I faked a smile . he was very happy .

I locked the door and opened my drawer.

I took the ring and looked at it .

I had flashbacks . every memory .

The ring has every memory of me and aziz , when im about to forget him this stupid thing reminds me of him . actually , when ever I see him with hal 3alya I cry , bs it's time . im starting a new life .

I threw the ring on the floor and changed my clothes , took my new car keys and went to the salon

Lisa : hiii madam rana long time no see !!

Me : yeah lisa , im hair to get a whole new look

Lisa : here madam , sit

She lead me to the chair .

Lisa: so what is in ur mind .?

I unlocked my iphone and showed her a picture of fatma al safii hair style . I wanted the same

Lisa: oo nicw same a shoojy too

I laughed : yeah

Lisa : anything else ?

Me : yes , I want you to dye my hair with blond and highlight with a darker tone of blonde .

Lisa : ooo .. nice , the colour will go perfectly with your ocean blue eyes !

I know ! I would look totally different !!

Me : ok , here we go

6 hours later . I looked at my self in the mirror . I didn’t recognize myself. I look like an English woman . I was beautiful ! , the blond hair style went perfectly with my ocean blue eyes and pale skin !!

Lisa : very pretyy woman !

Me : thanks !

I went home . dad's jaw fell on the floor

Dad : entay ranaa !!!

Me :  eeh !

Dad came to me : shmswya !!

He devastated me : y3nii muu 7eluu !!

Dad : la 7lu !! bas eb munasabat shnu ?

Me : el 56ba !

Dad hugged me : allah yhneech w ywfgch , btw , thary w ahalah yayyeen y56boonch , yalla roo7y tzahebay ma bajy wagt.

I went to my room and wore my three quarter slim fit red knee length dress . 76ait a big golden flower near the shoulder of my dress .

I applied very light make up and a red lipstick .

I looked like my mum

Stop reminding ur self of bad things . its past and it will never come back.

I wore  my beige opened toe high heels shoe .