chapter 19

dad knocked : rana i opened the door me : 5air baba ! dad : 5air enshallah , bas yay at6mn 3laich before he walked out i wanted to talk to him me : baba bgool shy bs d5eelk la t39b dad : golay 7beebty me : baba , will mum ever come back. i could see him getting angry baba : NEVER baba 6l3 w 9k el bab bgwa , it made the sound that mum hates , i remeber every timemshe yelled at me cuz of doing it , i miss her , every part of me misses her . I NEED MY MUM ! i unlockd my iphone , and went to the received calles , i called back the number that my mum called me from. me : alo mama : mnu ? i heard a child saying : mama .. i heard mama saying : janum beroo ! janum beroo means 7beebty/7beeby e6l3/6l3ay i hung up . this is not true . mom got married w 3ndha 3yal how could she nestna ana bechurha ! I HATE HER . I CANT BELIEVE IM SAYING THIS BES SHES A BITCH i cried my eyes out , i wanted to die , i was always scared of this . and it happened my mobile was ringing . mnu , i wasnt in the mood 3ziz yes ! i needed to tell him i answered while crying : 3ziiiiiz 3ziz : rana ! shfeeh 7yaty ! laish tabcheen ! feech shay ! goolay rana tara ay lch baitkm. he's insane. me : 3ziiiz , umyy i cried . aziz : eee shfeeha me : tezawejat 3ziiz w 3ndha yahal , nesatna ma tbeena akrahha akrahha 3ziiz mu ana bchrha nesatna 5ltna eb sbt'ha e7na thay3een i cried again i needed a hug i needed someone who can keep me safe. and never leave me alone like my mum did aziz : shhh , im here for u , enty lazm tsheelenha mn balch , enseeha me : bs hay umyy shloon shlooooon i shouted while choaking with my tears aziz : calm down me : howw caaan i aziiz goool shloooon my dad entered my room , i froze . baba : rana ! feech shy baba ! laish chy t9rkheen . i wiped my tears and hung up , : ha .. la . la wala shy maku mafeeni baba : 3ayal laish tabcheen i had to tell him . he hugged me : ana ma ra7 ahedkum i cried i slept on my father's lap and woke up on my bed . it was 9 , i was going to meet sara at 9:30 , fy baitna my phone vibrated , my dad woke up dad : aa ,ha rana , me : hahha baba shklk day5 roo7 darek baba went to his room without saying a word ithink he was dreaming . heheh i checked my phone , it was aziz " meet me @ 10 ft maya " i texed back : cant i have to meet sara aziz : yeebeeha wyach hw he didnt know , i dont want to tell him , so i agreed well , daily routine no need i repeat it ,, i wore my marine buttoned black and white three quartet blouse and a red skinny jeans , i waved my hair and applied some makeup ********** 9:45 am , @ baitna i hugged sara and led her to my room. sara : i didnt see khala kunuz , wainha i looked down and up i looked sad i teared i told her everything sara : OH MY GOD ! rana enty tt3'shmreen me : la mn 9jy , shnu ana bg3d at3'shmar chy ! uf , ubooy 6allag umy w umy ma tbeena , plz la tyeebeen hal 6ari again ! sara : ok srry ,, a,.. are okay me : no ! she hugged me . we chatted , i forgot to tell her about 3ziz his name appeared on my mobile screen 3ziz <3 sara : 3ZEEEZ YT9L FEECH ! me ; sara wallah i can explain plz la t39been ,,, bs brd w bgoolch ok ? sara :rdday achoof - me : alo aziz : waianch 9arat 10 w n9 .l feehh shy el 6reej ?! oh shit . me : ha , la ma fy shy bsss ma entebaht ly el wgt aziz : wyach sara . me: eeh . aziz : ok 5leeha mra thanya me : ok aziz : a7bch me : yalla bye aziz : gooly awl me : shgool ? i acted like i dont know what to say , but he wanted me to say i love u , bs sara kant mny so i cant aziz : 3yara i laughed : bbye aziz : bbye , take care - he hung up sara : yalla start me : dgeega. i opened the drawer next to my bed , took the ring and gave it to her , shemlooked at it in a shock , she touched 7rfuna elly kanat m7furah feeh .. sara : OMG ! en5e6abty ya7mara ! me : tgdreen tgooleen sara : shnu y3ni , hay dbla y3ni en56bty ! me : not officialy sara : y3ni ma gltw 7g a7d i told her what happened from A to Z , but skipped the part that he was going to kiss me , l2na adry ra7tswy ly doosha. sara : OMG ! how cute ! jed allah ywfgkum ! me : thnx sara , what about u and m7md sara : bachr eb yt8dm ly , he talked to my mum me : OMGGGGG OMGGG OMGG Y7MARAA MA TGOOLEEN ! ZAG WAAI3 LAISH MA TGULEEN sara laughed me : wy3a i hugged her